I was minding my own business standing outside on my break, letting my mind wonder aimlessly and basking in the sun as it warmed my face. Busy planning the millions of projects at home I had started months ago but had yet to finish, moving around the mental list according to the length of time it would take to complete and the cost of it.
I should really write lists down I suppose, would make life a bit easier. *makes mental note*
Anyway-
There I stood by myself, eyes closed and leaning into the wall supporting the east side of the building. It had been quite a few days since being able to see the sun and it felt fantastic, even better because it wasn’t 10 below outside either.
I heard a loud noise above me; it was loud enough to disorientate my senses slightly. I glanced around but nothing was there. I knew I heard the slam and deductive reasoning concluded the noise was way too high to be a car door and the sound had a belled undertone to it. Like something had hit glass more specifically. Perplexed, I searched the side of the building still to no avail. I decided to blame it on my “superior” hearing abilities and wrote it off as a shoddy car door slamming down the street.
I had taken a step toward the back door and was searching for my pass to slide against the P.O.S. card reader that rarely works. when suddenly a large black object landed on the pavement right beside of me. I’m not sure what was more horrifying the object or the scream I let out after the object fell to my feet. (It isn’t easy to keep up the facade of a woman who can take care of herself after half of your co-workers heard you scream as though you were in a murder mystery movie. It was on of those “I’d like to thank the Academy” screams at that.) After taking a second to re-gather my senses and actually looking at the object. The object was a HUGE bird, though the type I’m still unsure of. It was about the length of my knee to my foot, black on top and brown on the bottom. I ran inside to find the co-worker who happens to care for birds in his time away from work and of course as luck would have it, he wasn’t in the office.
Normal people could have walked away from the dying creature without a second thought. I, unfortunately, am not normal. I have a gigantic soft spot for animals, even those I hate with a passion. And the poor thing was suffering beyond reason, I was sure.
Every few seconds I checked on him to see if he was still breathing. Sadly though, my attempts to save him were in vain. The total event took only 5 minutes to play out. So he didn’t suffer long. Still sad regardless.
Definitely makes for an interesting story though.
Hope you had a great holiday with you and yours. I know I did.
Much Love,
K
Song of the Day:
My post today is going to be about everything I’m thankful for. I know I complain and vent all the time on here, and I feel like you all think I’m just an angry person. (Wait…I am? Maybe?) I challenge that you all take a cue from Mim and remember the good people in your life, there are no guarantees for tomorrow. Let them know now.
So I’m doing my top 10 people of the year in my life and the reason they’re there…
10. The little Irish lady at the bank- No matter what mood I’m in, you’ve come to recognize my face and car. Always in a chipper mood even if you were just cussed out by someone who wants to blame you for the overdraw on their account. Plus, your accent makes me smile anyway.
9. My Step-Father- You treat me as your own even if you didn’t have to. Thanks for everything, I could never ask for more.
8. Stephenie Meyer- Thanks for the books that have introduced us to a little town called Forks et.al. OH and for Rob Pattinson’s reintroduction…most of us females thank you!
7. My dear blogger friends- We read one another’s triumphs and failures, we laugh and cry together…you all are wonderful. Never forget that.
6. The strange guy who stands on the corner everyday and waves- I’m not sure why you stand out there, but you are there everyday rain or shine. Just smiling and waving. And it’s contagious.
5. My boss- Yes I biotch about things from time to time, but overall I work for a very understanding person.
4. Those who let me down/betrayed me- You’ve made me stronger. Even if at the time I thought my life would crumble into little pieces.
3. Friends- I would name you all and the reasons for why you mean so much to me, but I’m not sure if even the mighty internet has that much space on it.
2. Tara- You drive me crazy and keep me sane at the same time. I’m thankful for having our paths cross when they did.
1. Mom- Just because.
Your turn.
Much Love,
K
Merry Christmas! Stay safe!
So, 20sb challenged a new post. What we want for Christmas…for each of the 5 senses.
Here we go! Sight: Of course I have my usual…
Gerard Butler
Yes…I want Rob Pattinson too, but I don’t want to be greedy.( And I would not share with anyone else.)
Smell: Mmm…Apple Cinnamon candles
Touch: Ooh I can post my answers twice?! No? Damn.
Fine, I’ll settle for the cutest dog in the world: Mini Daschund.
Hearing: Although I like all music, I’m seriously loving 3 Doors Down right now.
Taste: It never changes, I always want cheese…
Hmm. Well actually in reality, I’m happy with what I already have.
Much Love,
K
Song of the Day:
Dare you question my love for 3 Doors Down?
There are a few things in life that I feel should come no matter what:
1. A loving relationship with family/friends
2. Music
3. Fair benefits from your employer
You can imagine my surprise when we were informed that we were having our benefits meeting today. It is rather late in the year to finally decide/agree as to what coverages we will have. Which we all would hope to remain the same as much as possible; not including costs, naturally.
These meetings are broken up between the first letter of your last name; needless to say I am in one of the last groups. So technically my meeting will not be until 2pm today. However, I did have a co-worker who was lucky enough to be in the first meeting of the day. As soon as she came around the corner it was more than evident she was furious. I would venture to say she probably would have slaughtered the owner of our company had she not walked out (and the fact he wasn’t living the high life in NYC).
Reiterating the fact that I work for an insurance company, (and if you’ve been living under a rock) many insurance companies are currently going through major financial turmoil. As far as we are aware our company is staying afloat. Well, “afloat” as much as possible during the soft market crunch. We are fairing rather well actually against the newly (nearly) bankrupt companies that are always ahead in financial gains. Bringing in billions a year, for such a small company, is unfathomable for most.
Back to the co-worker’s malevolent attitude towards the company, she explained to a few of us what our coverage basis would be. The more she told the more rage built inside me.
Technically we have no coverage.
Yes, you read that sentence correctly. We. Do. Not. Have. Coverage. We have a plan that may or may not cover all but 20 percent, however we have to pay $1000.00 upfront. No deductibles, no co-pays, no anything. Plus not only do we pay the $1000.00 per visit (excluding of course wellness visits aka yearly check-ups where we have to pay the entire bill right then and there) we also have to foot the bill until they decide whether or not to accept or deny our claims. That we have to turn in, four days before our next pay check or else they will automatically deny.
On top of this our prescriptions will be either $30/$50/$100. It’s quite sickening. We would have a better chance to pay the entire bill than to even turn it in our ”insurance” the company has so graciously offered.
My opinion:
Our company is in much more turmoil than they’re letting us know, and this is a ploy to have people leave without the blemish of lay-offs on their record.
(Btw- did I mention the fact that it will be a $3000.00 upfront per dependent?)
*growls*
So, needless to say as soon as I post this…I’m googling the hell out of types of policies and companies.
Shove that insurance up your posh ass, you sweaty belligerent poor excuse of a man/CEO.
This year it has been really hard for me to get into the spirit of Christmas. I’m not sure why. Just has been.
So, to help with this problem I decided maybe it’s because I’m not listening to any Christmas music…
Here are some of my favorite Christmas songs and feel free to leave a comment about your favorite!
Not sure if you guys know who the Celtic Women are…but here’s one from them Definitely an acquired taste…but they’re very good.
First of all, this new wordpress layout…seriously bites. But it may just be that I do not get along well with change. So the layout may be fantastic, but I’ll never see it that way.
Thank you. All of you, for your thoughts for my family. Losing a family pet is difficult especially in the manner that we lost ours. But, we all know/knew it was better for her. That makes the decision and pain a bit better. I would liken it to losing family member (only one that doesn’t talk back, loves you even if you are in a bad mood and you never mind coming to see you).
After the past two weeks of one horrible situation after another landing in my lap, I honestly did not have high hopes for this weekend. Glad I was wrong. (you may want to save this post…you will never hear that come from me ever again)
I have decided that if I could have a weekend like I had in exchange for having a horrible week, I would make that deal.
Or if I could have a great week with a great weekend, that would be awesome too. Haha!
I’m not really sure why I was so surprised with the results of the holiday weekend. I have been well aware of my place with a few families for quite some time, and I had gotten too comfortable. Which is fine, sometimes we need reminding of our significance or lack there of.
That’s all I will say on the matter. I had enough words exchanged and thought this weekend to last me for quite some time. Hard to believe that I try to remain peaceful isn’t it? I swear the fan that insists on being hit with shit follows me around on a regular basis. Hence my lack of emotion, after a while it’s just easier to not care or just get angry throw my fit and say my piece and be done with it. I can not deny the twinge of pain is still constant when I think of the horrible words said.
On the plus side, I did spend time with a few friends this weekend. Mim let me borrow the second book to the Twillight saga, which I engrossed myself with to throw off my mind for a bit…well three and a half hours is all it took up. I really did try to not hunker down and read that fast, apparently it isn’t possible. And yes, I about threw it out of the window. I understand why it is the least liked out of the series for sure.
My god-daughter’s big number 4 birthday was yesterday, however we celebrated on Sunday. And my roomie kept us moving yesterday after going to a “meeting” yesterday morning for my best friend, otherwise the thoughts would have consumed me.
And this afternoon we will be putting up decorations and cleaning with Christmas music blaring (because you can trust in the fact I have neglected my domestic duties for a couple of weeks).
Hope your holiday weekend was much better than mine…:-)
1) What is in the back seat of your car right now?
My heavy winter jacket, tissues, cd covers, and a file folder
with paper work for the Jeep.
2) Name 3 people who you talked to today?
No one.
3) What were you doing at 8 am this morning?
It’s not 8 Am yet, so…not possible to answer
4) What were you doing 30 minutes ago?
grumbling to myself in the mirror
5) What is your favorite board game?
TAboo is a great game
6) Have you ever been to a strip club?
No, they gross me out a bit.
7) What is the best ice cream flavor?
Strawberry
What are you wearing right now?
Clothes, and be thankful for that!
9) What was the last thing you ate?
Mt. Dew, it counts.
10) Have you bought any new clothing items this week?
Pfft no.
11) What’s the last sporting event you watched?
I watched like two seconds of the NC State and UNC game,
got pissed and turned it off.
12) If you could go anywhere in the world, where would you go?
Hm. Ireland.
13) Who was the last person to text message you?
Chris, I think.
14) Ever go camping?
Sure
15) Have you ever lost anything down a toilet?
I totally flashed back to the tiny toons cartoon.
HAHA! That was fabulous.
16) Do you use smiley faces on the computer a lot?
Nahh
17) Are you someone’s best friend?
I think so. She’s my Ying.
18) What are you doing tomorrow?
Tomorrow is Thanksgiving! SO I am going to go see family and plaster on a fake smile.
19) Where is your mom right now?
No clue.
20) Look to your left, what do you see?
Work phone, post-it notes, recycled paper, pictures etc.
21) What color is your watch?
Not wearing a watch.
22) What do you think of when you think of Australia?
Nemo, that’s fairly sad isn’t it?
23) Do you have a dog?
I do not. My room-mate has two.
24) Last person you talked to on the phone?
Uhm. T? Yesterday? I think.
25) Have you met anyone famous?
A few people, but a couple were family members so they
don’t count.
26) Any plans today?
Work…oh boy, I can barely control my excitement.
27) Are you happy?
I’m…here?
28) Where are you right now?
At work.
29) Favorite pair of shoes you wear all the time?
If I can possibly help it I don’t wear shoes.
30) Are you jealous of anyone?
Why would I be?
31) Is anyone jealous of you?
They are leading a mighty sad life if they are.
32) What time is it?
5:59ish am
33) Do any of your friends have children?
Yes
34) What do you usually do during the day?
Work.
35) Do you hate anyone right now?
Hate is such a strong word. I prefer to not use it unless
it’s in a joking manner.
36) Do you use the word ‘hello’ daily?
Always
37) How many kids do you want to have?
I’m not sure.
38) How old will you be turning on your next birthday?
25
39) How did you get one of your scars?
I flipped over a beam and a screw tore back my skin and knocked
my knee cap out of place,
enjoy that image as you eat breakfast
What was the last thing you drank?
Mt. Dew
What do you feel like right now?
I’m not really sure. I have quite a few emotions
begging to come out.
How many times have you eaten sushi?
I really don’t have the time to try to count
Do you know of anyone that has a crush on you?
I guess you could call it that?
Think of the last person who said I love you, do you think they meant it?
I would hope so, was my mother.
Do you have any saved texts?
I don’t save them, I have them printed for future blackmail purposes.
I’m kidding….maybe.
Are you starting to realize anything?
I lead quite a sad life.
One thing you’re looking forward to?
Friday
How late did you stay up last night and why?
I fell asleep the first time at about 7ish, just
exhausted emotionally and mentally
Do you believe that everything happens for a reason?
I believe people are brought into your life for certain reasons
and to serve a purpose at that moment. Not one thing
is to be permanent. So yes, I do believe things happen
for a reason and you decide the path to take to get to the happenings.
Are you a jealous person?
Not usually
Regret anything?
Never. I am who I am because of my past.
Are you watching tv?
No, I’m listening to the excited chatter of co-workers
You have one day to live, would you stay home?
Yes. And I wouldn’t tell anyone.
What are you currently doing?
Thinking that last answer was slightly harsh.
If you could do something differently, would you go back?
Absolutely not.
Would you move to another country to be with the one you love?
If I’m not mistaken, I think that’s the point of love…not
being able to live without the other.
Do you still talk to the first person you fell hard for?
Yes.
Do you prefer to take showers at night or in the morning?
Night
Do you always answer your phone?
Never
Have you ever fallen asleep in someone’s arms?
Yes.
Do you still talk to the person you last kissed?
I’d rather not answer this question.
Is there something on your mind that you wish wasn’t?
Isn’t there usually?
Do you currently have a hickey?
That would be a no.
What did you do today?
Nothing so far, seems this is taking my attention away from it.
What are you looking forward to in the next three months?
Just Friday, need some time with my friends.
Do you think you can last in a relationship for 3 months?
Only 3 months? Psh. Ye of little faith.
Does anyone love you?
I hope so.
Who is the person who broke your heart?
My heart does not break. I refuse to let it.
What are you doing tomorrow?
Going to see family
What are you doing this weekend?
Ruin my weekend to spend with a group of ostentatious
self righteous a-holes. Sounds like fun doesn’t it?
Are you happy with the way life is going?
I’m content.
When was the last time you felt like your heart was actually breaking?
Never. Why are you so adamant about this subject?!
Are you happy right now?
I swear you’ve already had this question.
Are you good at hiding your feelings?
It’s my defense. I can’t help it. Especially right now.
Do you like to cuddle?
Depends
Do you believe ex’s can be friends?
It takes me a while to give up grudges. But eventually yes I can be.
What is the last thing you did before you went to sleep last night?
I really don’t remember, I took meds..and the
next thing I knew T was walking through the door.
Will your next kiss be a mistake?
*shrug*
Would you go back in time if you were given the chance?
Never.
So go forth and do these questions…kills time at least
Much Love,
K
Have a great Thanksgiving Weekend!
Song of the day:
I went over to Mim’s (for some much needed Mim time) and to borrow it. Yes, I finally put my grubby paws on the book.
And I read it. All. The entire freaking thing. In three hours. Aside from my being a speed reader, I just couldn’t stop.
And I must say I am fairly impressed that the movie kept to the book as closely as it did. And I also stand firm on the fact the movie is very good.
(IN YOUR FACES TO THOSE WHO FELT I HELD NO MERIT BECAUSE I HADN’T READ IT! HAHA PEOPLE, HAHA!)
So, when someone calls this series addictive…it’s an understatement. And had I not finished it (aside from the first chapter to the next book, HEY I had to sleep) at 12:30am, I would have been calling Mim to 1. once again declare my love for her and the fact she has the books on hand and 2. declare my hatred for starting a new obsession in me.
I tried to hate it. I tried to reiterate the fact this isn’t my style. I tried to keep my mind glum heading into the first pages, it half-way lasted to the second chapter. And then, of course, it drew me in and I gave up my resistance.
And now here I sit at work, still in a sort of fog and my imagination running wild. Theories of the next book swirling around amid the chaos that is my mind. Completely banishing any coherent thought I may have had today. Too lost in just the thought of a love that inhabited and animalistic.
To those who think the movie was horrible, do answer my question instead of attack me. What did you expect? Your imagination on screen? May I remind you, this wasn’t your dream…it was, however, Ms. Meyer’s.
I guess I will give in to the craze. It was impossible to not connect with each character nor long to be one. And I must admit I’m intrigued to find out what happens next.
Much Love,
K
Song of the day: Music has been stuck in my head, namely this one. It’s haunting really. May not be your personal style, but nothing beats a piano.
