A slight update

I figured I would let you know that I am alive…and still in a quiet hell that is all my own. My heart is still slightly shattered, but my will to continue even with my head full of the appalling events of the last few months is not. I must admit that the saying “What does not kill you, makes you stronger” never meant anything to me until recently.

Now I’m beginning to embrace the challenge that was my life, and readily accept the defeat I know I am headed for.

But as the wise Carl Jung once stated:
“There are as many nights as days, and the one is just as long as the other in the year’s course. Even a happy life cannot be without a measure of darkness, and the word ‘happy’ would lose its meaning if it were not balanced by sadness.”

Bring it.
I will not allow myself to ever get to this point again. I’m much too deserving of something better than what has been given to me. I’m finished feeling worthless and nonexistent. I’m completely and utterly done with lying down and being walked all over.

If you want to be my friend or be with me, then do it. I am not a convenience-only type of person. Through the rough times and the good times, that’s how it is supposed to be. And if those around me can not handle that, then I’d rather you not be in my life. It will hurt and I will scar, but all will be healed in due time. More importantly I will have a new lesson under my belt when everything is said and done.

I refuse to hang my head any longer for wrongs I have not done.
Welcome to the new Kim.

K